Less than an F.

Sometimes, I feel like I am being a total stranger on my own world. Everyday, I create delusions which only I have access with. Intervention of other people has never been on my list. I always find time on doing a lot of things that are not just out of curiosity. A lot of people do not understand that the depth of my personality is as shallow as the unleashed reality. Oftentimes, I realize that my acts are dictated by my inner self but now I am seeing myself as the doppelganger of the real me.

Confusion, then repercussion. I always fail to be a better person. I always fail to be the person I should be. Failure on no longer seeing the person I loathe within me? Absolutely. It turns out that as I grow older, as I escape this adolescence years, nothing is changing. There is no improvement.

I have to reconsider the better person in me. The door was left ajar and there is always a chance for renewal. I just hope so.

Sleeping alternative.

Perhaps the most important thing I should have right now is a lengthy sleep. For the past couple of years, I have been depriving myself with the grandeur of spending time on the dream world. I always end up being frustrated every time I waste time on being unproductive. Many times had I coerced myself to observe proper sleeping habit but my life after midnight has always been fulfilling albeit less noteworthy. Being attached to it is as being drowned by addiction.

Now that I am starting to explore the realms of the blogging world, I can't help myself but to stay awake as late as time dictates. This side of the internet is more than I assumed it to be. At first, I was just intrigued by what really blog is, and then eventually I found myself creating my own.

Only I have no idea whether even a single soul will have an interest on reading my rants as I proceed. But then again, as I see it now, blogging will be my career as long as I have an access to the internet as much as having money to rent a computer on an internet shop. I always imagine having my own computer, be it a desktop or a laptop, but then after the very second of luring myself, my hallucination brings itself to the verge of dreams, with which world I want to be at right now.

My eyes are falling and my mind is boggling. I guess this will be all for now. I respectfully welcome myself to the blogosphere.